My struggles with body image, a body-focused repetitive behavior and doing the inner work...
I challenged myself to post vulnerably this morning. This part of me I am the most sensitive, the most shamey, and the lower half of my tummy is where I have gauged my worth as a person over the years. Oof! Harsh. It's been a long road to reclaim good feelings and reverence for my torso.
Constantly checking. What does it look like? Do I look big? Should I wear this? I should cover up. Change clothes now, gross
There's only one other point in my life I ever felt so into my body (though for the wrong reasons) that I would publicly post an image with my tummy in view... When I was at my lowest weight, probably intoxicated in some fashion & needing outside validation.
Trouble owning my unique way of being, wading through work that was unfulfilling, denying my entrepreneurial spirit until I just couldn't fucking do it anymore..
YUCK. This sounding familiar?
My personal challenge this lifetime is/was to become FULFILLED. It is a theme in my immediate family to figure this out later on in life "when it's too late" which is sooo belittling and unfair your inner child to harbour these one foot in, one foot out feelings of finally having figured out what your purpose is and to then live it. (that's for another post or eight) They keep you in emotional limbo.
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